Chapter 5: What it feels like for a (Black Gay HIV+) Boy

This largely autobiographical, quasi-autoethnography is an account of the author’s experiences as a black gay HIV-positive subject. The author is primarily concerned with issues of representation and silencing. By sharing a series of vignettes, he details his efforts at remaining in control of his corporeality, that is, how his body is represented. He speaks to the desire of seeing (t)his body represented in its totality, in forms that identify and respect the intersections and interstices of his identity. Additional narrations of events include examples of how other black gay HIV-positive individuals are marginalized in our culture and what that marginalization signals about our current cultural climate (read: black men and their bodies are expendable).